First off, besides my trip to Vegas in September I'll be off to Wyomissing in PA for an LQ tournament this weekend.

Now to the main point of this journal. As the days and weeks go by I'm getting more and more of sense of what I need to do to "start my life afresh" even going down to very specific details. I've been seeking help from God about where he wants me to go in my life and I'm getting a pretty good sense of at least the initial things I need to do first.

First off I'm going to enjoy the rest of my summer - after my Vegas trip I plan to work my ass off, pay off some Vegas debts and take a LOT of time off LQ - maybe a few months. Second, I need another social setting other than LQ and the friends I have there. I'm thinking a college and career group at a church in the Toronto area or a singles Christian group or something of that nature. My sense of mortality is getting stronger as the weeks past but I pray that my motivation in EVERYTHING will continue to improve. I consider myself lazy in some aspects of my life and I desperately want to improve upon them.

I know my stance on relationships right now - and I know for me my current stance is the right thing. I hope that this "new" transformation of my life continues and I will never forget about God's purpose in my life.